February 2013

Whew! Where has the time gone??
Its been almost exactly 5 months since my last post. I can't say that I'm sorry though. I've just been too caught up with school and life.

I forgot to put up my yearly Christmas haul as well! That makes me kind of sad.
I'll put up my haul from Christmas once I get the time. I still have yet to edit the pictures and fix up my draft. It's difficult to blog when you don't have a template that you like.

 I felt like blogging today, since I'm feeling a bit down. I want to make this post a boring and selfish one at most. I need somewhere for my thoughts, I suppose. Bear with me, please. There won't be any pictures, and I'll probably delete this post within a few days.

What's been on my mind lately?

The big question... is... am I going to graduate within the next 4 months?

Lets start off with some background info. I started university in 2008, right after I graduated from high school. I didn't know what I was doing or what I was doing it for. It was just natural to keep going to school. The courses I enrolled into were mostly sciences and general prerequisites. They were all extensions - higher level - courses of what I was used to in high school. Biology, math, stats, english - you name it.

At the time, I didn't think that I would need to do anything differently. Given that I was only an average student in high school, I didn't do well in my first year. I joined the U of A cheer team, and assistant coached my high school swim team. I don't regret doing those latter things, because I got to create some amazing memories and meet some amazing people.

What I regret now is... not knowing what I wanted back then. I'm not sure if many people knew, but I wish I did. I know it's not something you can force, but it would have made everything that much easier. All I knew from what my relatives told me was try to get into Pharmacy. HAHA.

I failed miserably in my first year, it took my second year and some to recover. In that time, I took my beloved art classes, as well as a couple biology courses to boost my pathetic GPA.

I told my brother that I really liked my art and design courses, and he told me to try for Industrial Design, since a few of his friends have done that degree and were highly satisfied with it. So, there I go again - just blindly following a suggestion after doing a little bit of research. After 2 years now... I still haven't been accepted into the program.

Now I'm left with an Art and Design major with a bajillion left over credits that count for nothing. I was forced to pick a minor within a few days, and SO my minor is biological sciences, and I love it.

I like the idea of being different.

As you can imagine though, it is somewhat difficult to jump back and forth between art classes and science classes. They're so fundamentally different in their structure - Lecture, homework, and labs wise. I failed an art history course in 3rd year. Not my greatest moment, but I suppose it happens.

As I'm coming to an end of my 5 year journey at the University... I feel as if I'm still lost and dazed as to what meaning I have in this world. I still have to go out there and find a job. My decisions lie on whether or not I will go back to school and try to get into architecture, because that's "better paying". Again, it's something I've been told.
The dilemma I'm facing is whether or not I will "give up" wanting to work in a field of art and design. Maybe I'll go to nait and do some 2 year diploma and go to work after that. The thing is, time is ticking for me.

I'll turn 23 in September.

To think though - someone else who has graduated a year before I have will already have had a year with a career. It's quite unnerving. I want to be there in life as well.

During a conversation with a friend about our careers, the idea of creating a family came up. The questions were - When are you thinking of settling down? Do you want kids? If so, at what age? As to which, I answered... Whenever I have my career, and I'm happy with it. I'm hoping by the time of my early 30s - If I've met the right person. I don't want to get my hopes up and be let down later.
You can probably guess what type of character I am from that answer - Indecisive, a follower, not really a leader of sorts.

Regarding parenthood, my own parents never pushed me to do anything or be anything. Whatever I wanted was good enough. Now that I'm old enough to go out on my own, they're worried about my ability to support myself in the future.

Is that a cause of bad parenting? Or my inability to take charge of my life?

I'm not sure. It's probably due to the way my parents raised me. My dad keeps asking my mom when I was going to graduate. He still thinks quite traditionally, that that's why he never pushed me to be more than what I am. He thinks that I should be married and moved out very soon. He told me that making around $40,000/year was good enough. I don't want to be "good enough". I want my own life with my own career.

As  I get older though, I see how most of my actions and which path I've taken are quite selfish. I never took my parents into consideration as I went along with life. Heck, I didn't even think about my own consequences.

Now, I'm the person who's never done __(insert illegal substance here)__, but I think I've done much worse with being wishy washy.

I don't really know how to proceed in life... or what my next step should be. If I keep living the way I do... where will I be? Why is it taking me so long to find out? What's holding me back? Is the future recession going to make it more difficult to reach my goals ? What ARE my goals? I guess I should figure that out first.

I've spent about an hour rambling. I feel bad if you've finished reading up to here. Haha! But if you have read all the way down here, I appreciate it...

Until next time, I suppose.

-- xLissa

Goodies from Hong Kong!

I JUST posted a haul a couple days ago, but I didn't know my coworker and friend, Fion, was going to give me the stuff I asked her to help me buy in Hong Kong so soon! Just think of this as an extension to my last post. lol !

The overall haul! These pics were taken from my phone, because I really should be studying. LOL!

School Has Commenced!

Ey ey ey,

Hey ya'll. I've been gone for MONTHS. Lol, I just got really lazy with up keeping this blog.
I've worked all summer, took spring and summer classes as well. I'm determined to graduate by the end of this year!

I'm so sick of school, yet I'm not all that ready for real life yet. We'll see where life takes me by the end of it. It's kind of exciting not knowing what's going to happen next.

Anyways, I went to Chicago for 12 days before classes started up again, so I thought I should do a mini haul post. I'm kind of broke now. Funny thing is... I kept buying things even after I came back home. :( It's so addicting. Anyways, this is a picture of the things I bought in Chicago! This was from the day after I came back.

I got Neutrogena cleansing wipes, China glaze polishes, an OPI, ardell lash glue, lashes, butter london polishes, dry shampoo, lipbalm, and self tanner! 

Haul Withdrawl

:( I buy too many unnecessary things. I have a midterm on Tuesday, and I don't know why I can't bring myself to crack open this damn book! I wish it was warm and sunny outside...

I have a lot of pictures that I should show here... I take them for the blog, but I never blog anymore. : (

Anyways, since it's spring, there were a lot of make up schools that I was able to go to, so I might as well show you everything I've accumulated in the past couple of weeks. :)

Starting off with... my skin! LOL It's so clear in this picture, 

I'm not wearing any make up what so ever. 

This is an old picture I took... but I like my hair. It's so pink! 

Right now, it's gradient-ed with purple and blue

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

HARROW CHILDREN, 




:) Im in a random mood today.. or right now at least, and I can't think of a good business plan thing for class tomorrow.. so I'm going to sit here and blog, because my last blog post was in November - 2 months ago. 
Whoops. I'm sorry. 


My cousin pointed it out to me during xmas that she misses my posts, and that my last few were very underwhelming. Well, that's how I interpreted what she said anyways, because I can relate. I hate it when my favorite bloggers haven't updated in a while. Not saying that I'm your favorite blogger, but you know what I'm getting at! haha! Honestly, I was going to go back to my previous posts and write a little about the things I bought, but I got lazy, and really busy with school. 


How's school? WELL, I kind of suck... I know my faults, but fixing them is a whole other story. I'm too stubborn to get help from anyone. That's my nature. I dislike when people ask me to help them, because I like helping people, but I don't realize how much of my own time I take to do it. Does that make sense? Sometimes I feel like I'm ranting too much, and I don't get to the point. Anyways, this paragraph is referring to the table I never finished making in my furniture class. I hope to get it done before April. That would be my new year's resolution, I think. Get shit things done. 


Darned. I didn't understand when people told me that I would miss high school. I was like, yeah right, high school was stupid and I hated it... but really... I miss the freedom and the naivety. Taking the bus to ikea from the northside was an adventure. Now, we either get someone to drive, or choose not to go because we (I) don't have 2 hours to waste sitting around on a bus full of "scary" people. Maybe I've become a wuss. 


Oh look, it's 2am. My usual posting time. Does anyone else have this problem? When the most productive time of day is always after midnight? I can't focus properly any other time of the day. :( I'm always happy to know that a few of my good friends are still using MSN. it's a nice way to communicate when you're not on facebook 24/7. -.- Shout out to Walter in Brazil, and Marinco in the Netherlands, and of course the regulars. :P


I should make a character list of all my friends. LOL OMG, that would be funny!! 


TODAY... I hung out with Teresa... IN THE MATH LOUNGE. hahahaha. Her friends are soooooo random/funny. Typical guys that are super smart, but always can relate everything to sex. Uguh. We have a wonderful conversation about cookie nipples. ROFL. Okay. TMI, I know. 


I'm secretly trying to find pictures I can insert into this post to make it interesting... If you want to see pictures of random things... follow my instagram. I like posting random stuff. 


Hmmm... what's new... OH, most of you know, but I cut myself in December with a utility/xacto knife. I had to get 7 stitches. It's healing now. it's starting to even out. :) my hand looks gross though. I wonder what customers think when I'm using that hand to put makeup on them. Hmm... no comments yet. 


That brings me to the video my friend posted on my wall the other day, called "Fotoshop by Adobé" If you haven't watched it yet, I urge you to. It makes me laugh. WHAT are your views of 
using photoshop to correct one's imperfections? Do you think it creates an irrational view of idealized beauty? I personally think it is relative to the viewer's knowledge, experiences, and wants. A beauty blogger who regularly uses photoshop to enhance her features is xiaxue. If you hadn't known this before, would you have thought she was beautiful?




OKAY, enough words for today...




I was going to do a blog post in October on the makeup look I did on one of my recent facebook pictures... but I didnt... that leaves me with lots of random self portraits where I'm wearing too much make up. :)

I really wanted to use pink eyeshadow, so I came up with this look. 

False eyelashes make a HUGE difference. Look at my poor asian skimpy lashes. haha

Circle lenses. 0__0

andddd what it looks like without flash. YEP. 

Im sorry I couldn't add anything more interesting to look at rather than my face... I have more pictures but I can't find my memory card reader. :/ I'm thinking that I should get a laptop soon, because then it would have a built in memory card reader. Well, it's not just for that. I've survived almost a whole year without a laptop. I remember crying when I dropped my pink one in the Industrial design building and shattered the screen. :/ oh well. shit happens. Damn. Hutchinson can talk really fast. haha

OKAY, I'm going to bed. Night! 

-- xLissa